Ryder needs strength

  As you wrote above, Ryder was sent to you as a tool for your awakening and to make you a better soul.  The dog that I laid to rest in 2004 taught me that happiness comes from within.  Every evening at around 9pm when I would open the front door and take him  for a walk he would act like a kid at Christmas, even though he would be walking past the same houses, sniffing the same dog poop, and pissing on the same trees as he did every other evening.  He was fated to live out the same day over and over again, but he loved it.  Every dog is like this.  I wondered "why can't I be more like my dog?"

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